and i'm lost in your eyes,

*huaikuan
loves..it(:
white and blue
besties dears
friends
jielunjolin
luozhixiang
caoge
donuts!
popiah
eeyore
stars
glitter
fireworks
sweets
smiles*

remembered at 20:29

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20080330

Closed off from love

I didn’t need the pain

Once or twice was enough

And it was all in vain

Time starts to pass

Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened

For the very first time with you

My heart melts into the ground

Found something true

And everyone’s looking round

Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say

I’m in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don’t know the truth

My heart’s crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear

But they talk so loud

Their piercing sounds fill my ears

Try to fill me with doubt

Yet I know that the goal

Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater

Than the rush that comes with your embrace

And in this world of loneliness I see your face

Yet everyone around me

Thinks that I’m going crazy,

maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say

I’m in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don’t know the truth

My heart’s crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me

Oh they find it hard to believe

I’ll be wearing these scars

For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say

I’m in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don’t know the truth

My heart’s crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

this song is damn nice.. super nice.. ji nice.. hahaha quoting from eyecandy. but i hafta admit its REALLLYYY addictivee!haha been listening to it on friday sat todayy! haha just now when i went home..i heard brother playing it on his playlist too!:D

tmd. dunno which idiot first went to open the washing machine when my clothes are not done.. then now dunno is it the same idiot or another idiot took all my clothes out and put in the abit spoilt washing machine when they are all still dripping wet! knss!! not like there aren't any other washing machine available. pissedd-

remembered at 23:14

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20080329

stu·pid·i·ty –noun, plural
1. the state, quality, or fact of being stupid.
2. a stupid act, notion, speech, etc.

omgggoshhh..i just realised after weeks and months of using this word i just realised it really exist =x hahaha. i tot mavis came up with the word herself one. =x hahaha! arwell.. its always a common word in our conversation. hahaha~

carn believe i viwawa-ed for two days in a row. just now played bridge with a girl who dun really know how to play.. i was the one who won the bid. then she asked me.. am i her partner. so i tot she was one of my opponents cos...BY RIGHT my partner should know she's my partner. haha so i told her.. i dun think so. then the next thing i knew she threw out the card which i chose to be my partner!! x.x hahahha~ it was quite funnie actually..quite hengg still won the game((:

imisswatchingahwang!!(:

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20080328

i think i have reached beyond the limit of exhaustion.. hahaha i'm probably tired like siaooo but i dun feel it anymore..slping like less than 6hours seem so normal. suppose to be tired but i dun feel it.. maybe when the whole world tell me my eyebags are totally horrible..they look like they gonna stay with me permanently. and when i look into the mirror i carn agree with them more. haha.. and this stoopid guy can ask me.. why are u dying! u were looking good this morning wad! -.- ~~tmd~~ just feel like slapping him for all the rubbish he ay. =x

i think i finally understood my logic of not wanting to know my eyecandy T.T it just feels so weird la. or maybe in some way we're not at the same frequency or simply carn find anything to talk abt. haha.. besides him psychoing me to pon this pon that..but in the end i still went for all my tutorials. haha.. siannzzzzz...maybe eyecandies are really meant to stay as eyecandies..

just concuss in bed after reaching home.. even though the freaking weather feels so terrible!): my mom like woke me up 5times for dinner...until she finally gave up on me and went ahead first. haha managed to catch 15minutes of ahwang..iloveahwang!:D

carn believe i lug the super ultra heavy stats tbk home.. and realised that my lecture notes and tutorials are all in hall. plus there's stats quiz next week and stats is the only thing i'm happie stardee-ing ))):

i'm such a retard.

remembered at 20:14

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20080326

omgoshh...
i think its the first time or one of the few times.... i totally overslept!!!hahaha i din even hear my alarm at all!roomie hear my alarm but she din wake me up...hahaha i only woke up when shalene called me. when i opened my eyes and look at the clock.. it took me awhile to realised it was 810 and we have 830 lecture! hahaha.. wanted to just rush out to meet the rest but decided its better that i take a bath. hengg~ i did if not i doubt i'll last thru astro lecture..haha
and i talked to eyecandy!he's like hyperactive online too.. hahaha first time i saw him in school too!((:

wheee~
i need some concentration pills..
sq just reminded us its 20more days to exams..):

remembered at 16:24

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20080324

HAPPIE TWENTEEN DEBS*!!!!(((:

remembered at 18:08

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20080322

if i'm not gonna do anything productive now, i might as well sleep.

i think i'm pretty good at following wad dearestminy said.. hahaha after a half a afternoon of slacking, i decided to finally open the accounting textbook. but i end up getting stuck at almost every qns..it sucks): haha..then i decided to lug everything including my ds to bed..i think after two rounds of rayman raving rabbids i doze off. the rain was simply too nice((:

haha going crazy over step up2. feel like watching the movie all over again!(:

We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing.(:

remembered at 20:43

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finallyy homeeee!((:

oh, and that dearhuka looked like a midget beside giantme once again... dearestminy broke my hearrt!!carn believe she describe me as a midget!)): hahah but arwelll..i still love her :D long overdued photo..when we celebrated her birthday at the start of march. haha carn believe its almost halfway through march and april is already coming!

suddenly came across this photo..or rather neoprint. hahaha! i think...it was sec 1 or 2? i carn even rmb =x but thats like....almost 7years ago!! we're really growing oldd...

better go do something productive soon...

remembered at 12:36

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wooohoooo~~
just had movie marathon with huaaaa!!:D hahaha we couldn't decide whether to watch rule #1 or step up2 so....we just decided to watch BOTH!!((:
hahaha...luckily we caught the horror first..
the storyline was damnnn gooooooddd!haha just like how everyone say...the twist is really goood!hahaha but the whole story was quite sad): fiona xie's acting was damn zaii!haha ekin cheung was supperr charminggg :D
haha step up 2 was just...WAHHH and OMG all the wayy.hahah the part debs describe..the scene when she was in the white dress dancing salsa..OMGGG haha i think the climax at the last part was really the BESTTT..((: the girl is superr hotttt!! hahah the guy really wasn't that hot like how debs said..but his eyes are damn nice!(: haha..

screw up my bioclock again..
my brother called me like 10times ytdy morning and i din wake up..=x hahaha..jump out of bed and rush downstairs cos my dad wait until impatient alr..haha i came home and slept all the way till 6pm!-.-

just now when we walk back from amk..
we saw TWO HUGE RATSSS!!!!!! one at amk central and one just downstairs.... really damn fatt!!! hahaha... now huaa is telling me the cats here are very scared of the rats..haha

remembered at 04:16

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20080321

woooohoooo~
hell week is finally overrr!!((:
hahaha...
really feel a great sense of relief... though still got some other stuff to settle..and hafta start stardee-ing for exams REALLY soon. hahaha...
carn get started packing the stuff on my table!!haha..

went vivo just now..
carl jnr is damn niceee!!((: the portobello burger is DAMN NICE!:D hahaha..the western bacon one also not bad. first time tried the beef cheese fries oso damn nicee! hahaha.. the salsa sauce too!hahah just that its slightly ex...yummmmyyyy(:
went with gen to get her dress..haha all the dress all look so niceee!(: me and debs tried this short blue one..mine was too loose hers was too short.. hahaha! both of us stood beside genn in her black dress..look like its her wedding or sth! hahahaha...
OMG we saw someone and someone happily holding hands..all of us got so excited! we started following them..me and debs even walked in front of them they din even noticed us! hahah until we went right up to them and say hi they were abit paiseh..haha so cute!!! super funnn..reminds me of sec sch and jc..hahaha
really feel like i'm growing olddd...):

genn dropped me at kembangan... so i could talk to the very tired girl who slept for 2hours..haha took the loongg train ride home!((:
finally got some time to play my ds..haha

i received a super funnie msg from my brother just now..
tml going TOMBSWEEPING...mom say wake up at 9am..
hahaha...my brother's fave direct translation -.-

remembered at 01:17

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20080319

feeling terrible..
think i look worst than a ghost now..haha
can go join fright night no need put make up.. hahaha!
tot accounting...ITS FINALLY OVERR..
but not got minor amendments here and there..
dun dare to slp..
feel like i just went through another round of foc lo! hahaha..

wheee~
went for a spin around ntu...
in maomao's convertible!!(:
was feeling lazy actually..but decided to go get the kungfu dunk poster too!((:
glad i went down...
the wind feels great!!(((:

i really need to slpppppppppp -.-

remembered at 02:00

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20080318

ihateeeeeprojectsandpresentations)):
stay up like all the way till 7am plus for accounting...
came back...barely got to sleep..
cos i close my eyes then i had a nightmare of genevis and gaywhee arguing over our project..and all of us din get to slp all the way till 1pm tml when we finally submit the project...
then i drag myself out for ob which was 100times worst):
never felt that projects was so torturous..
i wanna go back to jc to do all the fmaths calculations and formulaas! maybe econs will be a 1000times better...hahaha
carn wait for this week to be overr)):

remembered at 18:39

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20080317

))):

remembered at 20:23

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20080316

kope this frm ruiting dear's bloggg!
quite like this picture..haha :D

i'm gonna make sure i open the freakingg heavy stats tbk and read abit of it..though i think there's not much use reading stats.. haha.. wonder wad was i thinking when i stuff the stats tbk in my bag man! x.x hahaha~

driving driving and DRIVING..
guess i'm starting to feel like haydee alr.. if they wanna let me pass then pass lo if not i'll just take again..its just a matter of time i get the license(:
today's instructor was super funnie! he really entertain me the whole way.. din feel so sleepy once i sit on the driver seat.. guess he's right..
i got the 40% skill.. just need the 60% luck..((:

totally dun feel like going back to pulau ntu..
wanna hide in my comfy bed at home!!

wheee~ kj wanna gimme his kungfu dunk poster!!

[edit]
some guys are just so vulgar!!
just won two games of big2.5 on viwawa and the other three people who are most probably guys start scolding a whole lot of vulgarites!! damn fierce la..damn scary i left the game immediately after i level up x.x haha..

time to do something constructive..((:

remembered at 20:21

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20080315

i'm freaakkkinngggg tired!):
no matter how long i slp.. carn seem to get enough slp!x.x haha maybe if i sleep from now all the way till next week i'll feel much better :D
carn even slp properly becos there's simply so much to do!

dunlikethisweek)):
please let it be over soon..

remembered at 21:59

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20080313

If I touch a burning candle

I can feel no pain

In the ice or in the sun

it's all the same

Yet I feel my heart is aching

Though it doesn't beat it's breaking

And the pain here that I feel

Try and tell me it's not real

I know that I am dead

Yet it seems that...

I still have some tears to shed

-Tears to shed

found this..when i suddenly tot of the phrase in Corpse Bride..

Can a heart still break if it stops beating...

creative thinking is finally gonna be overr soon!!((:

remembered at 10:17

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20080312

ohmytiannnnnnn...
while genevis was typing her creative writing halfway... my lappie blackout!! i look over at the radio i saw no light.. then i open the fridge.. NO ELECTRICTY!!!! omgggg... the lights and fans were still working just that all the powerpoints in the room dun have electricity connection!! x.x went to report to the hall office... but seems like nothing to done to the situation)):

i finally realise the importance of electricity)):

remembered at 20:59

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20080311

pretty picture duan piong show me!((:

and she was right i loveee the picture!haha though i carn see where's the triple stars...it came from a very pretty blogskin!but i'm soo lazy to change..haha maybe when i'm not feeling lazy..haha i like this line..

everything is okay at the end..

if it's not okay.. it's not the end.(:

reminds me of this picture!! found it the other time when i was searching for blogskins (: i like the tree.. the swing.. and the colour of the entire picture!(:

everyday is a new dayy(:

finally finish creative thinking assignment! i carn believe i typed 8pages.. 2000++ words x.x hahaha so brain dead now i dun feel like looking at the lappie or doing anything just feel like stoning -.- haha..

7hours of lecture tml x.x

there's still accountingIIproject.. obpresentation.. feel like dying..

blk34guys are pretty vulgar! and loud! haha...

remembered at 23:58

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20080310

see a face?!?!

its a left side view of a face at the bottom part of this picture.. haha at 4plus am this morning me genevis and gaywhee were going crazy over webcam trying to show gaywhee the face..hahah he was shaking his head endlessly cos he simply carn see it..i think its not super abstract but must be abit imaginative. hahaha maybe gaywhee is slightly highleveled...he actually told us its reflection of the clock in a puddle of water! haha me and genevis stared at each other when he said that..then we burst out in laughter.. we couldn't see it either.. but at last we managed to see wad he saw. haha.. i think art its just so subjective there's like 38713905239875209 ways of seeing things. everyone just see things differently!haha initially i oso din see it as a face..its just some animal to me at first..until i rotated the picture and saw the face...haha

though i really hate ob.. i think i prefer doing creative thinking 100times more than all the stoopid presentations -.-

back to accounting project..

haha..

btw..i had a good sleep this morning.. for the first time i woke up later than gaywhee! he had to call me a few times..and i din wake up becos of the phone call. instead..i woke up becos of a super funnie dream! i think really...ri you shuo si ye you shou meng.. hahahaha~ i dreamt of my fave car..and someone was driving it!hahahaha.. i woke up becos i fainted in my dream! hahahaha~ :D

remembered at 17:33

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20080309

head is freakkinggg PAINFUL..
this feeling REALLY sucks):
for the first time i feel as if i was a red indian just like shalene... not only face but all my arms and legs were red!! hengg.. never kana rashes x.x haha...
first time i think i really played bridge like shitt... stoopid gaywhee kept all the good cards i carn believe he got 11spades!! ^*#%#^##%%*!%&^*$(&( haha..
~~i'llconsidernottouchingalcoholagain~~hahaha

remembered at 13:24

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20080308

finally drag myself to wash the clothes..haha have bene feeling lazy but the laundry basket is getting too full!hahaha i'm soo glad haydee carn stand the dirty room and she sweeps and mop regularly..while i actually carn stand the laundry basket being full and i do the laundry frequently!haha whee~ my roomie rocks!really carn imagine a third person staying with us.. recently we keep thinking of stuff to scare the third person away if we ever have to stay in triple room..like saying..eh haydee the little girl is here again leh..u go play her leh!i not free..hahahha =x or pretend like we're terrible alcoholics and drink every night =x hahahaha!!
❤roomiee!(:

back from a night of wiiii!!!!:D
i think its the most fun console..much more fun than ps2 ds psp..haha
though i still love my ds and its finally back!din really played psp much but i liked djmax portable and bishybashy.haha but conclusion: i still love my ds! and i din regret getting it((:
a whole night of wii sports.. cooking mama.. the rabbid game!! trauma centre.. the mario and sonic game with the olympic-like games.. mario party!! the shooting game.. hahaha its damn funnn! though quite tiring..i think cos havent exercise for a looonnngg time. hahaha
but i agree with them.. i wun consider buying wii.. though i have brother to play with me.. i'm probably not home like 5days a week.. hahah maybe its really a better idea to invest in two more controllers and nubchups! hahaha~ played the whole morning then woke up in the morning to play again!:D
it shall be a monthly eventt!!
❤bouncyhaydeeminyyy((:

ohoh!! went for kentridge hall production last night... it was SUPPERRBBBB!!!:D really zai musical.. damn professional! hahaha maybe cos they are known for like being an arts or cultural hall.. but either way they are damn zaii!! the songs they wrote it themselves.. and they had like live orchestra to play for the musical! went to support cheegake who was like hidden 3metres deep below the stage with her cello..haha i think jessica one of the female leads sang damn nice! haydee's in love with the other female lead molly.. hahaha... i like this songg!(':

crossroads
so many questions in my head
such angry words have been said
so empty now, i am lost
in my own world
i'm at the crossroads

i look around, i see someone else
things have changed between you and myself
i would run away but i get nowhere
cause' i can't let go
i think i know but i don't ):

where's our fire that's passed us by
how much more can someone try
how do you fix it when it's old and it's broken
how do you complete it, when
everything's been taken away

i've lost direction and no one seems to care
i just need some attention when you're not there
been searching my soul, to be in control
and to make this love feel right

i'm looking for that light in our lives
where's our fire that's passed us by
how much more can someone cry
i don't need it, your blinding devotion
what will happen, if someone should steal me away

can you feel my pain
that echoes as our worlds get torn apart
the miles are getting longer between our drifting hearts
and i know, i know if we try
our love can just get us by

where's our fire that's passed us by
how much more can someone try
how do you fix it when it's old and it's broken
how do you complete it, when
everything's been taken away

~~feels like it explains everything~~

remembered at 15:51

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20080306

OMG..

I WAS WALKING FROM SESS TO THE LIBRARY THRU CAMPUS GREEN TODAY. and i saw my ultimate cute guy walking towards ME/US with his buncha friends!(: and i eagerly nudged my friend and whispered to her in almost indiscernible words "my cute guy! my cute guy! right right!" apparently, i couldn't contain my excitement. Absence makes the heart grow fonder man. and i stopped talking to her for like 10s because i was soaking in his presence..RIGHT (i was actually too nervous to talk...RIGHT) till he walked past us. And i turned in anticipation for her reaction and screeched "cute right cute right, cute right cute right" And looked at her with such earnestness if there's such a word like never before

and guess what,

she turned and gave me -.-

SIGH SO ANTICIPATED.
SO SAD LUH! when can my taste be recognised?(: this may be conflicting but it's good that no one appreciates your cute guy because it means he is solely YOURS!! *evil laughs*

thats not me!hahaha but dearest bengkuey. i hope she doesnt kill me for quoting almost her whole entry =x she's freaking funnie!just made me laugh out just by reading that..for the whole 2 years okayy maybe the last 3 years we known her..omg her taste is W-E-I-R-D! hahahaha.. especially the line in bold..i cannot stop laughing at it! i can imagine if the rest 8 of us were there..she'll see 8 -.- faces! hahaha.. really wonder how her new eyecandy look like man.. hahah and i carn believe she actually said someone was not bad looking !!!!!!! hahaha...
imisstheroyalties..when will we have full attendance again!):

roomie just reminded me...
i havent seen eyecandy for agesss...):
and she saw him todayyy!!)):
hahah and we realised...both our eyecandies the names quite similar.. hahaha! can use as cover!=x hahahah..

remembered at 20:50

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raspberryvodka and 7up..is damn niceee!(:
nothinglast forever..and
better that we break..

suddenly i feel a 100times more relax after ob contribution is over.. haha although there's like stats test tml and i dun really feel totally prepared for it. maybe cos its open book...but it doesn't sound easy!hahaha ob is really killing me..already dead long time ago ): all the creative writing and another group presentation coming up..OMG i carn wait for all this to be overrr! i rather be studying for tests or exams then doing all this stoopid presentations. its like never ending! everytime i look at the powerpoint or something... there's like something to be improve non stop changes! and there's like no sense of satisfaction...just feel slightly more relax when it's finally over!x.x at least studying for exams and tests.. there's like an end. like after you finish some topic or practice papers.. there's a sense of accomplishment like i really did sth... ARGHS... ~~damn presentations~~

i prefer studying a 100 modules of stats!! hahaha~

remembered at 20:39

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20080302

A person often meets his destiny.. on the road he took to avoid it.

-Jean de La Fontaine

It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves

-William Shakespeare

Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous

-Albert Einstein

In three words, I can sum up everything i've learnt about life:

it goes on

-Robert Frost

If you're not too long, I will wait for you all my life.(:

-Oscar Wilde

i
so
dead..):

while booking for my driving lessons...
i look at the dates surround the test date..
the week before i hafta hand in creative writing assignment..
that week we got group presentation for ob..
that week we hafta hand in accounting project..
that week i got my driving test!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! ~~i hope i die before that week comes hahaha~~

i'm not even escaping..
i just wanna stand on this spot.. dig a really deep hole and just hide inside =/

better wake up soon...

remembered at 20:47

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korean bbq and steamboat is damn niceeee..(: if only we could stay alittle longerr.. haha the waiter was damn hardworking..he like keep moving about doing things every single minute..haha i like the placee!its not crowded and the meat is yummmyyyy :D the rice was damn goood oso...haha its quite affordable and uob card got discount! wooohooo~ felt like i only see minybouncyhaydee for a short while...if only we could all stay awhile longer!):

OMG did i mention miny's sister is pregnant!! she was just married like...during christmas! ohmannnn...miny's gonna an aunt soon! hahaha

[edit]
my dearest 3 besties miny bouncy haydee were super excited over..

MY UPCOMING MOVIE! T.T the three of them just laugh and laugh nonstopp... it was a mistake to catching the trailer with miny... she laugh out loud in the cinema and keep saying my movie is outt...6JUNE I BETTER MAKE SURE THE 3 OF THEM CATCH IT..hahahahaha~

and YES ZHIJUN!! the leap years is damn niceee...omg wong lilin is soooooo pretty!(: haha besides the fact that qiyiwu has funnie english.. and miny just told me he was from china! i din know =x hahaha.. the show was touchingg!but i din really cry that hard.. dunno why either.. haha.. i like the lines that appear on the calendar each time a leap year pass.. wanted to take out my phone to type but i was too lazy..=x but i remember this one!
if you're not too long.. i promise to wait here for you all my life..(:

tired): first time i took the first bus of 74 and i realise the bus driver cheat pple one! the bus doesnt come all the way from dunno which interchange hahaha he just drove to amk mrt then he stop there and started switching on all the lights!! hahahaha~

i need more sleeppp....
dun feel like going back hall or school
bahx)):

remembered at 19:33

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20080301

a few hours later...
i'm back online when i attempted to read the article for sucky ob..-.- i soooo feel like doing so many other things rather than read the stoopid article which i dun understand wad is it talking abt..and i just keep re-reading the paragraphs..cos i just carn get past it..x.x haha i think i'll be 10000times happier stardeeing for my stats test which i'm oso not even halfway through...):

haydee is getting me addicted to ben&jerry's game!! hahaha its quite funn and the controls are easyy...but dun please dun click on the link to play if you're turning 22 this year or if u're no long a kid..cos mr. gaywhere says that its lame and its only for kids to play.. T.T hahaha..

suddenly i rmb him last night saying all the S.M.D...shalene mean disease and S.S.E.D..shalene sleep early disease.. hahahaha... me and genevis laughed like madd..i carn imagine wad shalene will do to him when she finds outt.. hahaha!

and cynli's twenteeny! haha....

how i wish i never have to grow up..

remembered at 16:10

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ohmannnn just when i tot i caught all the 4movies i wanna watch.. gaywhee conveniently reminded me there are still many i wanna watchh!haha..

everytime i see the trailer on the bus i keep telling myself i'll watch this show...now pple keep telling me its nice i EVEN MORE wanna watch it!!!(:

have been wanting to watch this show for agesssss!!!

saw this adv some time back at cine... then the other i was browsing my dvds i realise i got a movie of the same title by ken and gigi!! hahahaha...highly suspect that its the same story line..but the jap one look even more niceeee! haha..((:

i met winnie the pooh last night!! =x hahahah.. she's like 10times fiercer than shalene and 100times more violent than me..hahaha but that makes her super cute and superr funnie! laughed my way back home..haha

carn believe recess week is ending)):

remembered at 13:57

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